It had been a semester enjoying the hardship in undergraduate life. This life is not easy as going to cafe and order a plate of friend rice, after ten minutes you can eat. It is not like that. People come and go in my life. Easily come and will easily go. There is nothing i can do about it unless the relationship long lasting. If and only, there is long lasting because the reality is all of this is not belongs to me even the idea on writing in this entry.
People here and there. Society here and there. But what happen to my self ?
Pretending normal and good at every seconds of these days but the truth is, there is uneasy feeling that i often get after being friendly with someone. Then, i started make move to leave them. This is so, asdfghjkl ! On what mechanism i could express, it is a feeling that based on experiences of misunderstanding and mistaken intentions.
It is that uneasy feeling of fearing that my kindness and compassion will be mistaken as flirtation or affection by the person standing in front of me but here is the thing: I am a firm believer that this world lacks compassion. This world lacks love. Not the romantic love that we are always found in every book, movies, tweets or facebook status. It is not.
I am talking about true love for all of humanity. The love that will allow me to bring humanity in my brother/sister out as a gift to give a smile to his face, though he went they through the hardship. The love, which prompted me to check on my brother/sister, because I really care about how they are doing. The love, which makes me raise my arms in the middle of the night and ask Him, who answered our prayers to bless the brothers/sisters in humanity with peace and light.
But before I take this step and begin to infuse this emotion into all of my words and actions, let me take a moment to apologize: I’m sorry, you misunderstood; I am not infatuated with you or any of you.
For the last, i would like to say that my soul is attracted to your soul, in the most platonic way possible.
That's All.